Still writing the story of life...

And my education life will start come tomorrow!

2008-07-27T14:16:00.002+08:00

Well, finally the moment that i've been waiting for has finally arrived: I'm going back to school. Well, i'm pretty excited...and yet nervous. I missed my faculty welcome and i have yet to know anyone in my faculty! But i guess it doesn't matter much because i will be doing something else i think. I will be starting out by checking the library. Heh. I think i'll pretty much spend most of my time there. Maybe grab a few books along the way. Well...let's see how it goes yea? =)

Last day @ work: BC Asia Pac

2008-07-11T11:55:00.002+08:00

Curious about what i mass sent everyone?

To: ' All at Singapore - BC
Subject: Just wanna say a big Thank You =)

Dear All,

Today it's my last day at work in BC Asia Pac. I'm really grateful for your guidances, care and concern during my employment here.

I would wanna say a big thank you to all of you for making my working life in BC a colourful and an enjoyable one.

I hope that we would have an opportunity to work together again in the future if possible =).
Just in case if you're wondering how to keep in contact you may email me at tammietham@hotmail.com.

Best regards and all the best for your future endeavours =)
Tammie

And after that...i had a mass spam of well wishes =)...i'm very thankful for having the opportunity to work here...yes although sometimes the amount of shit given to me was more than crazy to handle...but its the people around here that are very nice and made this place a fun and lively working environment =)

I really enjoyed working here...and i've made so many new friends...even though i'm the youngest in the organization =) i'm glad that despite my age...i was treated like an adult (phew what a relieve) hahaha....

So....i just wanna wish everyone in BC all the best in their future endeavours and be blessed with health and wealth =)

I'll update on the Night section later hehehe which is definitely more exciting =)

Exhaustion and Asphyxiation

2008-07-10T14:32:00.003+08:00

"I WANNA 翻脸不认人"

This is the first time i really felt so tired. I'm handling 2 jobs at the same time. And anymore coming in...i'll just break down. Yeah yeah so what if it was just the last 2 days? If it were the last 2 days with extra pay for doing an additional job i don't mind...but i'm NOT PAID TO WORK FOR THE EXTRA STUFF...

My arms are hurting...thanks to the 25kg cartons i had to carry..
My legs are bruised...i kept getting my leg to matchmake any free-swinging doors...even ovens were not spared...
My stomach hurts...zzzz

I'm more overworked then i ever was...why? because of my stupid boss's boss inability to plan and handover everything to the respective personel... and i get arrowed with no gratitude whatsoever....

And yeah...you guessed it...i had to clean up the shit and mess...i don't know why am i so kind...i wish i was evil and just scold the fucking hell out of her...

Haiz...last 2 days and i can't even enjoy them in peace...i dread going to work...and i really feel so tired the moment i see paperwork on my table that clearly isn't my job scope...sigh...

I want my days to pass fast...so that i can spend my time with my one and only...is that so much to ask?! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Horoscopes

2008-07-08T16:18:00.002+08:00

http://songsdomain.tripod.com/zodiac/index.html

Well you may want to check this out if you have the time =)

I still remembered when i was young, i think this was the first and foremost the most interesting thing that caught my attention. I think the first time i came across horoscopes was from a Mickey Mouse book and a Ladybird children's dictionary. After that it incited my curiousity and i started reading up on it from the "great big book of knowledge" an encyclopedia range bought by my mum and dad in a bit to encourage reading at home... yeah i did read that range...but unfortunately its as outdated as hell now come to think of it...other than history, literature and poetry and the greek and egyptian mythologies, i think i can safely say that the range was redundant as sand from the crossing dunes in the sahara, plentiful but of no more value.

I think after that i was just so fascinated, i observed people using horoscopes. Even made notes of which friends i'm really comfortable with and which i'm not... its quite proven actually: I am not close to Scorpios and Virgos...in fact i didn't have any pleasant experiences with them.

Scorpios were downright despicable and crafty, doing anything they can to get what they wanted. They are easily jealous and they like to have the attention all on them. Though they are smart and beautiful, but deep down...they are just so...scheming...oh well i'm sorry for over-generalising but it just happens i'd condemn scorpios...

Virgos...hmmm lets see...they are somewhat similar to scorpios, just that they like to have this facade of innocence and naivity that lures men to fall head over heels with their angelic persona. But sure as hell, they are no angels hahaha... more like sirens...oh well...i didn't have a good experience with virgos too...guys or girls...it doesn't matter...they just somehow live in a world of their own...everything has to turn their way...it has to revolve around them...yes them and only them...

Pisces are a bunch of wonderful people, sure they are naggy to me at times but they do care and love their peers, family or friends. They do have a certain hint of anger when it comes to saggi's inability to be at their beck and calling, after all saggis are just so freedom loving and hate being bound by responsibilities. It's not that they can't take responsibilities, its just that sometimes they just don't feel the need to. Hahaha..yeah i'm being biased but freedom loving too doesn't equate that the saggis don't love home, friends or family. They do. In fact most of the time, family and friends will come first. But its just that they don't like to display such affections openly, they rather do it discreetly, behind the scenes kind of thing the "i do this but yet i don't want you to know" kind of persona.

Cancers and Saggis, though opposite in characters can surprisingly go well together, whether its work or family or friends. Both tend to look out for on another and share views of whatever is happening. Cancer being the more compassionate and homely one will tend to care more for the wilful and playful Saggi even though sometimes the Saggi does show care and concern to the Crabs by bringing them out to explore the world and feeding them news of the amazing and unimaginable stuff happening. Saggi provides the entertainment, while cancer provides the comfort.

Taurus and saggis, well i haven't been through this though but i will update when i have more info. The only taurus i know is my cousin and yeany, well it seems we can get along fine, and they tend to be very loyal and look out for you. Even if you are a pain in the ass sometimes, they'd still try their best to assure you that you made the right decision.

Capricorns and saggis are pretty much ok with each other. Caps although are introverted, they tend to give the support to saggis as and when they feel that saggis are complacent or doing something out of the ordinary or out of the blue. Caps and saggis have this unexplainable understanding that no matter how much people try to understand could not. Caps understand that saggis do things that seem rebellious and irresponsible but yet they will always remind saggi that no matter what...there will always be this pillar encouraging them and standing by them...

Saggis and Aries are fire signs together with Leos, these 3 are supposedly the most competible with each other as they are of the same element and tend to have the same gusto and passion for the things they do. Yes i do admit aries and saggis do get along very well at first...but when the flames go out...there's nothing left but running along to the next best thing...Leos tend to be very leader / autocratic like....and even though they tend to lead the Saggis, at times they are just too leader advocating that Saggis find it too hard to handle, much like the constrain of their freedom to be creative or doing things that they feel like...

Librians are balanced people and though Saggis are able to get along with them, Saggis will somehow find it hard to conform to a balanced and rigid lifestyle that will only mean boredom to them....Saggis HATE boredom, i repeat...HATE....so yeah librians can be very good listeners and advisors, but when it comes to leisure...it will always stick to the normal routine...which can really bore the Saggis...

Aquarians are very eccentric and sometimes too paranoid over Saggis ethusiasm with freedom. The more Aquarians hold Saggis back...the more Saggis run for it...after all you do know Saggis hate to be tied down by possessive people...

Geminis and saggis...hmmm this is quite a tough one hahaha...i had mixed reviews with this...it's either extremely goood or just downright crap...for now...i'd say i have met a very good gemini...and we can get along very well because of the fact that these 2 signs are very dynamic and changing....there's often not a hint of boredom in everything done. Geminis are very good communicators and have the knick for information...while Saggis have the enthusiasm of exploring new boundaries and things. This makes the pair an adventurous and fun-loving friends. However the only bad thing about this combi is indecisiveness...and both signs are guilty of that. Both are witty to counter each other and tend to have intelligent exchange of information and ideas...(much to my surprise)...

Well this is much of what i have learnt from my 21 years of experience in a nutshell that is...not sure if you have observed anything =) i sure did....

Hopeful yet melancholic

2008-06-26T16:11:00.003+08:00

Had a long talk with Jur on msn today...well after that i realised how tough some things are...and that it is quite impossible to begin with...and as each day passes by...it starts getting more and more sad...sigh...

I don't really have the mood to blog about it...just learning to cherish every moment left...

"Sigh...."

Pre-departure talk + Movie outing + KTV on 21st - 22nd June

2008-06-23T10:08:00.003+08:00

Slept at like 3-ish in the morning the day before and was woken up at 7am when the pre-departure talk starts like what...10.15? zzz i was in concussed mode when i woke up. Actually i have been like that recently...guess the lack of sleep is really getting to me.

Left home around 8.45 and my mum drove slowly to pick up Adel jie. We had quite a funny conversation...sometimes i really wonder if there was any logic to that saying either.

Mum: "I'll wait for you to get ready before going down to start the car."
Me: "Why don't you just go down to start? It needs some time to start up anyway.."
Mum: "I don't want to pollute the environment by starting up the car earlier."
Me: "....than what's the point of driving there when you don't want to pollute the environement?"

Both: .....(walks out to door)

So we had a slow "leisurely" ride that was well not that leisurely. She began to nag at me again for being so lazy to do this and that....sigh...i really wonder if i will miss her nagging...i don't think so LOl...but then again i may be nagged by Yusheng and Jicong who knows hahaha...

Arrived at the Pre-departure talk and yeah although we thought we were early, there were quite a number of people ahead of us. Met up with some of the people with regards to Insurance, TT-transfer and min who told us that the talk actually starts at 10.45 instead. So we headed out to Starbucks for coffee and then headed back.

We had no seats initially until halfway through...Singaporeans are really rich...you can see so many people filling up the room x 200k sgd each....that's like the revenue of just 1 batch...my goodness...education is indeed a lucrative businees...its a necessity and people are willing to pay for it....

After the talk, we had dim sum at Jade Palace @ forum...the dim sum there is really not bad...we initially wanted Hua Ting, but we decided to try out Jade Palace...hehe...i love how fresh those prawns were. After which...they headed for a movie (kungfu panda) and i headed home...geez you don't expect me to watch the same show 3 times right?!

After that...had a nice long nap...until i was woken up by a phonecall...then i went back to laze on the bed...ate dinner while playing rohan while watching LOTR...(yesh its a girl's talent to multi-task) then just as i was about to leave (i ensured that i won't be late again)...then dad cut a platter of fruits for me to eat...so i had to stay for 5 mins to finish it up...and i found out it was already 9.20...we were meeting at 10...and i had to walk to the MRT station...and change trains twice....zzzzz so i'd be late again...

So when i've reached...i realised everyone was in black except Ah Lau and i...tsk...so we wanted to watch Zohan....but there were just so little seats left...then we decided to head to Shaw Towers instead. The theatre was freaking huge...we were sitting like at the extreme right last row...it was the first time i'm in a cinema...staring down on the screen. Zohan was really hilarious...Darren was laughing his pants off as usual...

After that we had a long time deciding on where to go...and along the way we met so many trannys and spgs...and whatever you call that lures Caucasian men for a one night stand...i told joel to ask them "Combien" and maybe they might give him a roll for his money hahaha...but he didn't tsk...so at long last we decided to head to Mac first because Jeremy was hungry...and we sat there watching Euro for a while...Seems like everyone was rooting for Holland...while Joel sided with Russia...haha...

Headed to partyworld where we gt a big room and started playing cai quan and dice....Darren forced me to sing the first song tsk...but its ok because its my favourite song...so after that eevryone had a go...except for Ah Lau...he seemed pretty tired that day...and we had a lot of fun...cai quan was like 5 x 2 hands? hahaha...and everytime we lose we have to drink...well it was really fun...i haven't felt so happy after so long...kinda sad that it will end...sigh...

Then after ktv we headed to the same Mac for breakfast...they ate while i sat drinking milo. After a while it rained extremely heavily and we had an interrogation proceeding with Jeremy which didn't realise into anything prospectable. We set out for transport...and walked to many taxi stands till we arrived at Far East. After that i headed home...washed up and slept around 8-ish...til i was woken up by my mum at 10? zzzz....i think i slept 3 rounds that day...woke up only to realise i woke up to eat brunch and slept again...till around 4...zzzz then i slept till 5 and was concussion mode till 12.30...

I can't keep going on with this lifestyle! hahaha....

"i wonder if some things were meant to be and if some were not..."

Music Mood-day

2008-06-19T11:29:00.003+08:00

I've finally decided to painstakenly search and change the song...(sorry lee hom you're archived but i still love your songs).

One of my favourite songs from Rachael Yamagata (to think i was a sacrificial goat then tsk), well this song Reason Why, kinda relates to my life. Maybe that's why the emotional attachment to it...but either way enjoy =D

My favourite line

"And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I, you and I know the reason why"

random MSN chat

2008-06-19T10:58:00.002+08:00

cindy says : gd morning

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ohayo! niu niu is smart

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yes

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so is my smallest tortoise

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MISCHIEVIOUS

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juz found out

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they ain't stupid

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they're bluffin' us all

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they aren't

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they think we are stupid

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haha

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we always think they r slow

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actually they spend alot on thinkin'

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den react

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think too much

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haha

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they have all the time in the world

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dun need to work gt house gt food gt water to play with

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nnb gd life

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eat

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pee

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see see

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look look

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stop

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slp !!!

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wtf man

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fucking gd life

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even people clear your shit man

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
haha

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but u haf e joy of seein' them grow up

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yeah la

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
alot of ppl who didn't keep turtle ...

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its like raising a kid

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actually my family kinda enjoy the tortoises

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
doesn't noe e logic behind their behaviour

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lol

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my mum even treats them like her children

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we leave the kitchen toilet for them to play the whole day

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until night time we keep them into the little bucket

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
lol

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yeah

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really no joke i can take pics for u

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
they run around my whole hse

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-_-

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LOl...

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cannot run around the house if nt cannot find

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then they die of hunger...have to clear their mess...ewww

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
they're still very small ?

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lol

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e day before zhihao took niu niu dwn e void deck

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walked for 6 hrs

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survival trainin'

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nope they are freaking big now

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wtf...

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they go through NS?

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haha

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for guys yes

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lol

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wth!

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oh ya

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gt uniform?

cindy says: i just found out niu niu isn't dumb ! says:
ur turtle shld be 1 yr younger than niu niu

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6 yrs old?

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gt 32km march?

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yeah

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i think so =/

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lol

Rainy days...(Version 2: when blogspot resurrected)

2008-06-18T15:37:00.006+08:00

Just when i wished it rain...yup it rained...if only i wished for money and it appears, or a phD, or a career....ah well...

Its rainy days like these (i mean the heavy downpour kind) that squeezes every little ampule of emo out of you. And instead of finding a friend to talk about it...you choose to blog and whine about the f87ked up shit that has happened or is still happening in your life...tsk...

Recently...i'm being constantly bitten by the irritating/annoyance bug. It seems that some people just find "get out of my 100m radius of sight" a little too difficult to comprehand. Which english word seems incomprehandable to you? 100? ok that's the only non-english thing there. It seems that Mr. L (for loser) is still on a pilgrimage for forgiveness from the Almighty Queen (me)of sanity, hoping for a day to redeem himself and be spared from the wrath of Her Highness (me). Apparantly he even tried so hard to the extent of sending me emails which were "detected unsafe and could be a potential harm to the computer" (hey don't blame me, even hotmail knows what's a loser mail and what's not and spared me the agony of ever reading it).

The most annoying part of this entire epic saga is that our department has a "close relationship" forged by my Queen Mother and their Empress of Siam. Now...first i have to deal with a Mr. L...and next i have to also deal with a soon-to-be Mrs. B. Well, apparantly that scorned Ministry of Failures and Retards who can't seem to behave in a matured manner as well as think maturely are an army of idiocrisy and childishness like no other. To think i'm younger than them and i think way further...tsk talk about young at heart.

Well all the best to Mr. L and Mrs B. if ever the 2 of you are together (which is impossible because she will not dump her husband for a loser like you, and even if both of you were together, she'd be sleeping around with other guys...and you'll have to "accept it" like a wuss, spineless piece of f87ked up shit).

Well, if things could get worst, i'd say i have to endure this pieces of thrash till the 11th of July where i won't bother to even give a hoot or 2 about them. I wish them all the best in their neverending efforts of failures in life (proven) as well as in getting lightning strikes multiple times. While i head out to smell the fresh air of Happy Land and stay with 3 guys under the same roof...

*PS: no major differences but you can read the different variations

Rainy days...version 1 (before blogspot died on me)

2008-06-18T14:59:00.003+08:00

Just when i wanted it to rain...it came...tsk...if only it'd happen the same if i asked for money...or a phD...or a successful career...tsk...

Its rainy days like these (the heavy downpour kind) that will really squeeze every ampule of emo out of you and you end up blogging about it and whining about all the sad shit/f87ked up crap that had happened/ are still happening in your life.

This is crazy. There's a certain mr idiot that doesn't seem to get "get the f87k off from my 100m radius of sight" mean. He continues his pilgrimage of forgiveness by constantly sending me pitiful-sounding smses and emails that are virus plagued (no kidding even hotmail quarantined his mail, sorry guess you're just fated to feel my eternal wrath for the many years that you're going to continue to live, as a loser.

And the saddest part of this entire shit is that i am required to have "close connection" with this loser and his ministry of dumbf87ks and retards with tasteless humour....God save the Queen (me)...and he has this tendency of always...i mean always...asking me retarded questions that i will never answer truthfully, Evar..but just to make him feel happy i entertained him with a 1 line ending sentence with no opening for the conversation to carry on. And if this didn't seem enough...he'll come over and try to talk or take a look at me (uh-oh he's doing it now...dumb f87k)...and speak with a pitiful sounding voice...i'm sorry save it for your pretty little slutty bitch over there...thank you...i think she likes it more...well i wish the both of you a happy ending (obviously there won't be unless she gives up her rich bf for a loser like you...ah well she'll probably sleep around too...who knows...you're just a loser anyway...)

Ahh...i feel so much better...well...time for work heh...

Life...

2008-06-17T17:20:00.003+08:00

I guess two parallel lines did meet after all haha....and realised that we are of the same frequency...lol...either way...counting down to july...sigh i think i'm so gonna miss sg...=(

Will 2 parallel lines ever meet?

2008-06-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

Ever thought about this in your life?
Whether 2 parallel lines would ever meet?

Mathematically its only possible if there's another line crossing both parallel lines, it could be a tangent or another linear line...sometimes even circles are able to allow 2 parallel lines to meet.

But in the context of real life...is it possible for 2 strangers with totally different personailities and thinking to meet? Sometimes we are affected by the timing, maybe 5 minutes lapse difference in thinking could make both parties not be able to meet. Then again it could also be affected by our decisions, to reply or not to reply, to start a conversation or not, to meet or not to meet...but sometimes when something pops out...you don't even have the choice to make those decisions...and then its back to square one all over again...

Sometimes it could also be the people whom you meet, you might have met up with the same group but at different locations and timing. Sometimes even meeting up could go crazy and halfway in between, either one had to leave for something else and then you realised hey you didn't meet again.

Sometimes it could also be last minute things that make both parties not meet, like helping someone in need when you've failed to meet at the stipulated timing. When you turn up, the other person is gone as usual.

Maybe after all this, you can conclude, you're just not fated enough. Maybe fated enough to know each other, but not fated to meet.

Didn't know i could pen all this down after thinking about whether 2 parallel lines would meet...geez i must be crazy...

As June is soon to draw a close...even though its just the first week...

2008-06-06T15:20:00.002+08:00

Its really fast...in a few more months time...i'll be moving to Aussie for my studies...seriously...i'm very happy and hopeful for this big change...even though i had sacrificed my time with my family and friends in Sg for this celebrated transition.

Not that i am being crazy or anything but its been a long while since i get to enjoy this kind of change. Change for the better or worst? I don't know but i guess time will tell. Recently there's been a lot of things going on in life and i think its really scary.

On the topic of friends:

Like friends around my age are getting married (they are not even 20 for crying out loud)...well what can i say...but i just hope that they'll be happier from now on. =)

A mini saga on BGR is happening in forums...seriously...i just hope that it can all stop and not cause so much drama in forums anymore...and to the 当事人, all of us hope that you'll be able to see the light soon...and stop living in this delusion...and start thinking about your education...that's the only thing that will see you through in light of all the things that have happened... Love can wait...anyway you've still got a long way to go in life so treasure your youth...=) But no matter how harsh some of the comments were, know that we are your friends no matter what happens.

I've made quite a nice friend recently. I hope that our friendship would last after all the things that have happened recently =) and i really enjoy our conversations a lot...so yeah...i really hope i don't lose anymore friends or meet and socialise with the wrong group of people again.

On the topic of work:

It seems like its really an awful long time till i end work. But whatever it takes to help my boss till she's ok and that the next person taking over does not screw up...i think i could sacrifice that little bit of time =)

On the topic of love:

Nope...currently i'm keeping my options open...=) i'm glad i have moved on actually...now at least i could smile a little more...and not be shrouded in unhappiness...i think its safe to say...i'll be expecting a little more sunshine now that the clouds have cleared a little =)

Bidding continues...

2008-05-30T16:00:00.002+08:00

Argh 3 more agonizing days left...I'll have my verdict on the 3rd of June...1.27.17am...i really hope i can convince the guy to sell the 2 CDs to me...and that it is below $300...sigh...let's hope and pray ok?

I really want those CDs! Jia you jia you! we can get it! =p

Hmmm...should i give this up?

2008-05-29T21:11:00.002+08:00

Recently...i've been searching for OSTs...FF8 Original 1st Print, Limited Edition...but at the same time i found th FF10 Original 1st Print, Limited Edition too...hmmm now i am bidding for this 2 CDs...and yeah...i don't know if i wanna let him know about this CD? Actually the main CD i wanted was FF8...but i got FF10 too because i did play that game before...so hmmm he's looking for it too...i am considering getting for him first...then let him pay me back or something if he wants it...

Well let's wait and see if i can get the 2 CDs first...

Little feelings...

2008-05-28T19:41:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since i could find someone who likes the same thing as me...and that he's really nice and helpful to advice me on what to get and all...it's a really nice feeling...i don't mind having a nice friend like him...just that...i wonder if its a little awkward to ask him that...haha...

Well, after much deliberation...i'm thinking of getting the FF8 Original OST... although i missed the boat on the first print...i guess its ok...since i love FF8 alot...i don't mind getting the second print... =)

Nowadays i just like to wait for his PMs...and wonder what will he advice me next...because apparantly...i'm also looking out for first prints which are very rare...and both of us want to get our hands on it...so hmm...that's the bad part of it... well either way...i'm quite happy that i managed to find someone with the same interest as me...and its funny how he even went all out to try playing ace attorney just because i told him i love that game a lot...and now i find myself beginning to wanna try out ff12 revenant wings too...heh...its amazing how this kinda things happen...just through mere words...

All out of love

2008-05-25T21:09:00.002+08:00

"Are you H?"
"Yes..."
"Why...why are you here?"
"..."

You came to me...I was so shocked..and I didn't know what to say...
Then you just hugged me...and said...I'm sorry
I cried...I cried so hard that I don't know what else to say.
But the next thing I know that person was switched. It was someone else.

I couldn't stop crying even when I was awake. Are you trying to tell me something again?
Is it really my imagination that kept you alive until now? Or is it you're really trying to tell me something? Or is it because I just can't forget about you?

Why am I still crying about what happened? Why am I still crying about you and me?
I miss you....I miss you so much....but what's the point when at the end of the day I will not talk to you anymore...

We're just back to strangers again...

Anticipation

2008-05-24T18:26:00.002+08:00

Yeah...i've already tendered my resignation...and my last day is on the 11th...i have agreed to help out till then...although it will really be tiring on my part...i guess i don't really have a choice huh...
I will most likely be flying off on the 16th...seriously...i don't really feel like seeing anyone before i really leave...i don't want to make it seem that i will be gone for good...it's weird...i don't know why...

Sometimes...when you thought that some things are just beginning to surface...maybe friendships, maybe relationships, maybe work...you'll not hold so much grudge or past feelings that have been affixed to them in the past...somehow...the same situation will really look different after this point of time in my life...

I don't hate the people who caused so much shit in my life anymore, i don't bother about all the troubles that i have been having in the past, i don't regard any future problems undermining my future...i somehow...see things in a much clearer light...

Maybe its really called "letting go"....forgiving yourself of all the past hurt, torture, remorse and failures that you keep blaming yourself and refuse to let go...and soon it clings onto your very little empty space...and manifests into a parasite...that never fails to leech out all the love, hope and anticipation that you once had.

It's been a while....and i should learn to forgive myself...after all the things that have happened. I can well only blame myself, but i shouldn't sulk on it for so long...apparantly...i've been dragging this guilt for 3-4 years... and even though i kept thinking that i have moved it...i think subconsciously i am still harbouring this guilt in me...

It's not that i can't forgive myself...its that i can't bring myself to forgive myself. It's like its already done, the damage is there. Whether i try to salvage or not, it's a permanent scar. I am deeply troubled by it, but yet i have to move on and deal with it. If not i can't get on in life, i will find life tiresome and i will not be able to keep on going.

I haven't been able to come up with a good reason how i should forgive myself and move on. Even though sometimes i did try to make it up to myself, it's just sometimes not working. I wonder if i can forgive myself someday for this...i really hope...

Out of a sudden....

2008-05-24T14:22:00.002+08:00

I felt something very different...although i'm numb...i still give myself the benefit of a doubt...
I have been...rather close...maybe a little too close to someone...someone i may not even know that well...I don't know...if i should continue to stay as the way i am...or just be open to changes...

I don't want to get through anything like that all over again...please don't....

Cooking competition!

2008-05-01T20:46:00.003+08:00

Yup....was awake very early to prepare the meat and to cut some of the kimchi... overall it was very tiring and hectic. When we reached, it was already 9.30am, went to register and was met up with Miss Leong, Miss Toh, Dr Tay...and all of them spoke to me about Uni of Massey and hoping that i will stay and do my studies here. =) But i think its pretty obvious i'll be leaving...

Well..the cooking competition was intense, when we found out that we had to compete with 11 other teams...most of them with their parents or grandparents who are very very experienced in the kitchen...as compared to Tommy and I....who hardly step in unless we need to =/

So our table was right in front of the spectators...we had to face the media...and people coming to our tables constantly and we having to entertain them....there were people from the media, press and our very own students....all hoping to get a piece what we were doing...actually everyone was curious about our dish, which was rice balls with a fusion of everything...

We had a tasting session, and yes...we were so nervous when we noticed that the table was filled with very nice looking, delectable...and very innovative dishes....and then i thought...we were done for...until one of the judges came over...and asked my brother..."Hey are you the group who did the rice balls?" And my brother was like "Yeah...(shit...)"...and he said "Oh wanna congratulate you first...well done"... My bro and i were like (What the fuck are you kidding me?)....

And guess what....9 Merit awards were given out to people who did the very elaborate and nice looking dishes...including the Paiti...and others....We were holding on to our seat and we were so nervous...we didn't expect to make it out of the merit award range...

"And now for the top 3 prizes...." Miss Leong spoke. "These are 2 of my Food Students...and they have won themselves the most delicious meal award!...they are TOMMY AND TAMMIE!"

(OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...!)

Hahaha...and when they asked us what is the name of the dish...my brother answered..."Reunion Rice Balls"...and they were so happy for us....my mum was very happy and shocked too...hehehe...what a memorable day...and it was the best day i've had for so long....=)

Hehehehe....for once...i'm so proud of myself and my brother hehehe....

"But still...i wished you were there to see me....=) i really did..."

谈谈生意也不错...

2008-04-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

最近总是忙着筹备在外国留学的芝麻绿豆小事...总觉得心里虽然是充满着期待和冲劲...但也有些小小的孤独小情绪...最近也开始慢慢习惯自己烧菜洗衣...对一个从来都不做家务的我....真是有些不习惯...常常许要老妈子亲自出马...

JUR JUR妈妈也开始和我谈谈生意...搞创业...

smile...

2008-04-10T11:34:00.002+08:00

I still have dreams of you.
Are you trying to send me a message?
I kept asking you....trying to clear my doubts...
But you....you just smiled...
You kept trying to stay by my side even though i kept pushing you away...

Why am i still having feelings for you even though its so long...
I ought to be happy that you are attached...
I ought to be thinking of moving on...
I ought to be preparing myself for Aussie...

But why are you constantly appearing in front of me?
Why is it that i can't forget you totally...
Why can't i just move on knowing there's no more between us...
Why can't i stop being cruel to myself and holding on to the past...

Can you tell me why for once? And stop smiling in our dreams?

Blackheads!

2008-04-04T15:32:00.001+08:00

Beware Of Disgustingness Ahead!xD;

1. Wash your face, and hands, with a plain soap like Ivory. Rinse all the soap off well, and dry your face really well with a clean towel.
2. Look in the mirror to see where the blackheads are, and then with your fingers, or very gently with your nails, squeeze each blackhead until the dirt rises to the surface of each 'infected' pore. You can do this with just the worst ones, or with all of them. ((Note, your skin may look a little swollen or red, we'll fix this.))
3. Wash your hands and face again with the soap, and dry dry dry.
4. Next! You must put some acne cream over the place you removed the blackheads from, or else it will get all infected with more blackheads right away, or regular pimples. The kind I use is Clearisil Invisible Acne Treatment Cream. ((It's great for any kind of blemishes, not just blackheads.))

And voila! Your skin may still look a little pink/redder than normal, but isn't that much better than gross blackheads all over? @_@;
And remember, never touch your face during the day, unless you've just washed your hands, otherwise you're putting loads of dirt into your pores. #.#;

Good luck. Personally blackheads aren't my problem, just regular pimples are. My tips will work for those, too ...Remember kids, a face that looks slightly pink is better than a face that has giant yellow pimples and blackheads ready to blow. >_>;

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Scrub your face with your usual scrub, it doesn't matter as long as it has those micro beads... so that it really rubs on your skin.
Now, don't wash it off!! Instead, after you massage the scrub into your face, take a mechanical toothbrush (with the rotating head... they're really cheap now too) and scrub your face with the toothbrush.
The brush will grind the beads while cleansing out the top layer of your skin and slowly scrubbing away the black heads. Do that in a round motion for a few minutes, then wash it all off.
Next step is a TONER!!! Toner is basically supposed to refine your skin by closing up the pores (which by the way can't close if you have dirt in them) so after you scrub things off, wash your face and apply a Pore Refining Toner. I use the Neutrogena one.
Do that 2-3 times a week for at least a month and i PROMISE your skin will have less black heads.

Wow...

2008-04-04T15:10:00.001+08:00

New tips.

Drinking grapefriut juice before meals helps start the fat burning process more.

*Here is a sample reducing meal plan based on grapefruit and high protein. It won't work for everybody, but may be useful.

Breakfast:
Half grapefruit or 8 oz.
Glass of unsweetened grapefruit juice
2 eggs: any style (fry your eggs in butter)
2 slices of bacon

Lunch:

Half grapefruit or 8 oz.
Glass of unsweetened grapefruit juice
Meat, any style, or fish Salad with sugarless dressing

Dinner:

Half grapefruit or 8 oz.
Glass of unsweetened grapefruit juice
Meat, any style, or fish (gravy must not be made with flour) Salad (Do not over eat your salad. Lettuce spreads out in your stomache after you eat it, streching your stomache making it larger. ) with sugarless dressing
Red, green or yellow vegetables, as much as you want (but no potatoes or corn!)

Bedtime Snack:
Tomato juice or skimmed milk

Special Instructions:
Eat at each meal until you are full.
Don't eliminate anything, but make wise substitutions, if necessary.
Grapefruit is important; it starts the fat-burning process.
No eating between meals.
This diet eliminates nearly all sugar & starch. (Fry your eggs in butter; do not use artificial sweeteners.)
Use butter generously on vegetables.
Use as many organic ingredients as possible.

Planks!

2008-04-04T14:51:00.002+08:00

What the hell are they? come come read up...http://sportsmedicine.about.com/od/abdominalcorestrength1/qt/plank.htm

How to do the Plank(Hover) Exercise for Core Strength
Add these core strengthening exercises to your ab workout for a new way to build strength and stability.

Plank (Hover) Exercise

1. Start in the plank position (see photo 1) with your forearms and toes on the floor.
2. Keep your torso straight and rigid and your body in a straight line from ears to toes with no sagging or bending.
3. Your head is relaxed and you should be looking at the floor.
4. Hold this position for 10 seconds to start.
5. Over time work up to 30, 45 or 60 seconds.

Plank with Leg Lift

1. Start in the same plank position (photo 1) as above with your forearms and toes on the floor.
2. Keep your leg straight with your toe flexed.
3. Slowly raise one leg 5-8 inches off the floor (photo 2)
4. Hold 1-2 seconds and slowly to the floor.
5. Switch legs and repeat.
6. Do about 2-3 sets of 10 reps.

Plank with Arm Lift
1. Start in the same plank position (photo 1) as above.
2. Carefully shift your weight to your right forearm.
3. Extend your left arm straight out in front of you.
4. Hold 3 seconds while keeping your core tight.
5. Slowly bring your arm back to starting position.
6. Switch arms and repeat.
7. Do 2-3 sets of 10 reps.

Modified Plank with Leg LiftTo make this exercise a bit easier, you can perform the movement on your hands, rather than your elbows.

Beauty tips!

2008-04-04T14:36:00.002+08:00

Recently i have been surfing the web and came across this webpage when i was looking for Japanese Hairstyles haha...Come and take a look!

ASPIRIN MASK

There has been a wholle bunch of good reviews from people about the asprin mask and even dermatologists says it's good for your skinIt's easy and inexpensive to make, clears up any pimple scars, exfoliates your skin, can help prevent skin cancer, can clear up sun spots, takes pimples away, leaves your skin smooth and soft!

Materials needed: NON-COATED aspirin, honey, plate, and a few dabs of water go here to watch a 2 min video on how to make it..http://youtube.com/watch?v=3n4dnv3wlSs

Steps

1) Gather all ingredients: 3 tablets of aspirin, honey, and plate
2) Create Mask Paste: Add 2 small drops of water to each aspirin...Don't put alot of water on cause then it wont work and it'll just be all mushy
3) wait for asiprin to dissolve, then crush them up with your fingers
4) Add honey and mix it...making a thick paste
5) Apply mask to face for 10 minutes
6) Wash face with warm water in circular motion
7) Moisturize your face with moisturizer
8) TADAAAA...Face is beautiful!

Do not over do the mask...Only once or twice a week

:EDIT:

before u moisturize...IF U want...U can use a toner to get a cleaner face from the aspirin and honey...and then moisturize...but that step isnt necessary...just if u think its not clean enough from the water or something

Confessions / Encouragement to my hair..

2008-04-03T15:45:00.002+08:00

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Update week~

2008-03-30T19:50:00.002+08:00

Ok....you've been neglected once again =x. Its not that i have nothing to write...its that there's so many things that have happened that i don't even know where to start off from. Hmmm...ok so here goes nothing!

The week when good friday and easter goes together...

So our company had a local event. Basically what we needed to do was to "volunteer" ourselves to "run" for the company. Every 1km covered will contribute $1 to building a school in the Ivory Coast for the village there. Ok so this didn't sound like a big deal right? After all most people who gladly volunteer and get out of the office for a breather. So we were sent to Sembawang Park where we begin the "run". Ok so most of us walked while some others ran. During the entire run, William was the camera guy and ya many cam-whoring going on but i don't have the luxury to do the uploads here. There was buffet, pool and karaoke going on! Wow wee~ But just when i was about to start singing my song, Doreen told me that we have to go, course her hubby offered to pick her up =) and she offered to send me to the MRT interchange where i took cab thereafter. OMG THE CAB FARE WAS HORRENDOUS! IT WAS ABOUT $25!!! o.O , gone were the days of reckless waving and lifting of the cab when you are so freaking lazy to walk...sigh i have to be more "thrifty" from now on.

After a quick shower, i headed down to Vivocity to meet up with my family for "dinner" apparently i had supper there which was the oyster mee sua (o-a mee sua). Its not that bad considering that the gravy was thick. I rewarded myself for the "run" that day. I guess it wouldn't hurt to eat some high cholesterol seafood once a while?

So what exactly did i do for Good Friday? Well i basically stayed at home to Silk~ Apparently i have a newfound love for this game after adding the European race with many interesting "job". I apparently chose Bard which was like a Buff + Range + Mag + Int character. She uses Music to fight. Interesting right?! Weapon of attack was the Harp. Which is so interesting.

Sunday was Adel jie's Baptism day together with her sister at St Joseph's Catholic Church which is a Bugis. Started off at 12.10 pm till about 3 pm and apparently for my brother and i, its the first time we have been to a catholic church. So we definitely felt a little weird. Angie, Alan and Adel Jie's mum were there to grace the occasion. There were SO MANY PEOPLE and the church was rather stuffy as it was quite a humid afternoon. But nonetheless the event was a success. And after that we went for lunch and then headed home.

Ok this is what happened that week as far as i can recall.

So this will make up for the forgetfulness of your beloved owner =)

How long has it been?

2008-03-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

Its quite long from what i know...since i last saw you...
As much as i want to know how you're doing, i realised i have no courage to ask you that.
Its surprising how a dream, can make you realise so many things.

I haven't forgotten about you. Even though its been so long, so so long.
I've tried to move on, to do and meet other people.
But no one comes close to you.

You seemed happy in the dream. And it seemed as though it was those happy memories and days that we had spent together. I had so many questions to ask you. But you didn't say a word. But just brought me to the places that we go to. And knowing that you're the only one beside me. I felt relieved even though i know it's not what it seems in reality.

Your smile, melted every single doubt i had.
Your caring attitude, finally gave me the security that i have yearned for so long.
I just wanted to stay in your embrace, for as long as i can remember, for as long as i can.
Your warmth, i have forgotten how it had felt.

But just as dreams end, your face started to fade.
And...i found myself...lonelier than ever...
I don't even know if i want to tell you i'm leaving...

Things that will teach me to be a much better person...i hope

2008-03-16T18:30:00.002+08:00

Ok...so finally i realised that i have already had my amount deducted from my account to my Aussie account. Ok the feeling is seriously miserable. About $700+ Sing dollar has been transferred. =(

And now i am facing the adversity of having to try to save up to my minimum expected level before i even leave to Aussie. zzzzz Goddamnitmotherfucker.... Anyway, I have completed 2 books "fervently" which is Rich Dad, Poor Dad and The Richest Man in Babylon. Now i am reading up on Beating the Street and followed by a biz journal that i have bought but yet to read yet.

I have already learnt and finally realised what my mum has been trying so hard to instill in me. Ok i mean now at age 20 after finally waking up from my foolery in the teenage world had i woken up. Its still not too late. I believe. But i will be following what i think is right. It pays to plan and think about my future now that i'm 1 year closer to "my supposed freedom".

I'm planning to earn more and build my assets column. I've learnt so much and have opened my views on the world. It's true like what someone used to tell me and i have to thank him for it and how i realised what he really tried to do for me back then: "Knowledge is abundant everywhere, its just whether you are willing to learn and appreciate it and use it to your advantage."

Yes, i really have to thank him for this teaching.

It takes a crane to build a crane...

2008-03-11T14:29:00.002+08:00

Recently, i'm very motivated to plan for my future and my retirement. You must be thinking, you're kidding right? You're only 20 and you think about retiring? Sheesh!

But hey....its true. I really do think about retiring and "not working so hard for the boss and company till i'm old and grey". Don't get me wrong, i am still studying on the subject of my interest but i'm also thinking about my future. Can my usual working salary support and be able to provide me throughout till i'm say 40?

If you're given an option to use $10 000, what would you do? For me, This amount can be used for investments, things i like and i know will grow. Its time to be financially self-sufficient and reliant. I have also realised that the 8-5 job is seriously not my cup of tea, so what do i do after i seriously have nothing to do?

This is a good time to discipline and grow =)

[Target: 35]
See you at the top! =)

Countdown to Aussie: Day 126

2008-03-07T10:08:00.000+08:00

Ok...i'm really very very excited about going to aussie...nothing much at work today because boss has to fly to HK and China immediately to settle some outstanding issues, office is very quiet because i'm the only one in...Edward and Andy are on leave. But i mean its ok since i have the whole college and dept to myself...i can surf and blog and do whatever at my own time and pace. I've melted some chocolate to temper...but i'm really very very lazy. But i might be doing some later on in the afternoon, obviously i have to see my mood.

Spoke to yeany last night, and i realised i have to bring my lab coat and my safety goggles, most probably i will bring back my current barry-callebaut lab coat hehehe...and i have to get safety goggles from some hardware store. She told me to bring very very thick clothing and bring more than 1 thick blanket; recently my god-sis has just given me a silk blanket...according to yeany its just not enough o.O omg... i'm so afraid of cold areas...but i love winter...-.-

Anyway, accomodation wise i'll most probably be staying with the 3 guys already =/ but i'm not sure how it'll turn out to be...sigh...i realised i have to really really save up and buy all the barangs here to bring there...just daily necessities alone can drive me crazy...what to do...i'm a girl =(

But i can't wait to go aussie...i will most likely have to pack some of my notes tomorrow and arrange accordingly, what i want to bring to aussie and at the same time read through a bit...so that i have a rough idea of what i will be studying... Apparantly the course structure is almost the same, just that i have to get used to their education system, which is DEFINITELY different from Spore, in terms of lectures alone, i think its enough to kill you. Hmmm now i need to find books as well, but i'll see how it goes, maybe i can lend it from Yeany first.

Ah...i really can't wait to stay in aussie and study and experience the life there. It may seem i'm really so heartless like i am basking in my enthusiasm to study rather than thinking about how my family is feeling. I don't know but i really want to study like NOW. After working for a while, you'll realise that studying is so much more relaxed and less political than at work. I finally appreciate school, ya it took me like 20 years to realise that. And all the while i was thinking working would be less stressful than school, i was so fucking wrong.

Hahahaha. Meeting Kw later, to collect my a maths text, i'll also be using the scarf that he has given me...finally it can be put to good use hahaha...=)

Things to buy are a many...YES A MANY...

1.) Winter wear
2.) Jeans
3.) Shoes / boots
4.) Contact lens solution / new specs / Lasik (the best option)
5.) Toiletries
6.) Ladies stuff
7.) Stationary

These are the approximate things that i have to get...=/ wonder how can i get all these at less than 2k omg...crazy... Anyhow i am so excited hahahaha

Weee~

2008-03-05T18:15:00.002+08:00

Ok ok...on a lighter note, today was a half day...and i managed to complete my things on time. But now the problem is...i have to take another 1 day leave next week! My boss is DEFINITELY going to be suspicious...apparantly my mum doesn't think thats the case...tsk...

So we had lunch and met up with my mum's colleague Yusheng. Talked about life in UNSW, accomodation, banking stuff and etc. The interesting part i think is the accomodation...i may have to stay with 3 guys =/ so i'm not sure how things would happen. I mean i don't mind...but my mum and god-sis wanted me to consider...but i'm just lazy =x hahaha...just want to find a place soon and stay there so that i can study...goddamnit! but then again...its so hard...hahaha....we'll see how it goes....meanwhile he kept telling me and assuring me that it will be way way fun there...and that i will enjoy myself...he's kinda brotherly...and ya by default i have a guardian already zzz...and my mum and god-sis thinks that he's a reliable and trustworthy person so we'll see how it goes ya...

And another side note...these 3 guys don't drink and smoke...they just watch soccer =/ ok so that's a relieve? =/

Feelings...

2008-03-03T22:12:00.002+08:00

You come and go in my life... you're really an adhoc bf. Just that i don't mention about it.
Whenever you msg me, saying we should meet up. We always get into another emotional level.
Sometimes i tell myself to just enjoy the moment. And let the rest go for just a little while. To let me indulge in this little happiness.

When you go. I can't stop thinking about you. Hoping to get to talk to you soon. But i know its impossible. And soon, i'll forget all about you. And i won't attempt to make any single contacts with you. I won't. And then i'll forget about you. Until your next call or msg. We are so on and off. Just like a fling. Psychologically, i can take it. Emotionally i can't. But what can i say?

I wanted somethings like that. Now, i have to learn to let you go. And go back to the usual pace again. I cried again. After so long. After so so long. Does this show that i do have feelings for you?
I really wished i could stay happy. But its so hard. I think its because i love to play and fool around that i got myself always in this kind of situation. I want you to come to me. I always wanted you to.

I think i could get used to this lifestyle...

2008-02-19T13:02:00.002+08:00

Hahaha...off days are meant to be spent at places you least expect...
I think i coud get used to this lifestyle...of sipping coffee and surfing the net at relaxing coffee places and malls...
Though the coffee is freaking huge...i think my caffeine intake has increased tremendously in a span of 2 hours...ok...so i'm supposed to help my mum....i'm supposed to be relaxing...and i'm supposed to read up...
Will be reporting back to work tomorrow and 3 more days till the weekend woohoo~
Ok...i still need to settle some stuff right before i fly off....now all i need is a place to spend my days in Aussie...
Today's my mum's bday...hoping that she will not be doing shit work till 9+...irritating i tell you...

很想对你说。。。

2008-02-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

有时。。。当你觉得。。。五年的感情，友情，爱情。。。以熄灭。。。
我终于要离开新加坡了。其实领走前最想要见的人是你。。。还有很多很多事情想要跟你说。。。

你还记得当我们第一次见面吗？我还记得。。。你是个大坏蛋！终是欺负我。。。还记得。。。每天要我帮你拿东西如功课等等。。。其实当时我根本对你没有感觉。。。反而。。。我满讨厌你的。。。

还记得你喜欢她的时候。。。天天要我的帮助。。。当她出国留学时。。。还记得你想送她的礼物。。。渐渐我们开始向兄妹一样。。。有的没得都会见面。。。当时。。。我还是笨笨的。。。一直当你是哥哥。。。

可惜。。。始终。。。有些事情。。。像挽回。。。已经太迟了。。。。只能忠心的祝福你。。。。
你始终还是在我的心里。。。虽然我遇见的人也不少。。。但终是没有忘记你。。。。也许我真的明白。。“爱一个人。。不等拥有。。而是放下。。要他幸福。。。要他快乐。。。”

我不望想我们真经在一起的时刻。。。也不会挣取还能和你在一起的可能。。。
我要走了。。。其实我想跟你说这句话。。。也许。。。永远都不能有那个勇气再面对你。。。。
我爱你。。。我真的爱你。。。

Dream...

2008-02-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

Finally...i've got great news! I'll be leaving for school this coming June. It seems that leaving Sg to study in Aussie was really inevitable. As exciting as it is, i'm still not very used to being away without my family around...

I think its all about getting used to. There are so many things i want to do and want to achieve there. Perhaps its really a great chance to start all over. To start from scratch. To learn and rediscover things that i have not yet learn.

Obviously, i'll miss a lot of people. I've recently come to know more and more people from forums and have grown rather attached to all of them. I'm lucky. In a sense, i get to be accquinted to people easily, thus knowing more people and being closer to all of them.

Ok so from now on i have to learn how to do the following:

1.) Iron clothes
2.) Wash clothes
3.) Cook
4.) Dry my clothes

It's time to really really be independent. I'll have to also learn to be thrifty and prudent of the things that i do. Obviously since i have to fly off in July, i'll not be able to sign up for my piano lessons as planned. I'll not be sure if i will be learning driving. I'll have to quit my job by May, which will definitely disappoint my boss. I mean i really enjoy working with her...but maybe its just very untimely and i really want to study.

Its a time for growth and independence. Its time i learn to grow up. And pursue what i really want.